Wednesday, June 4, 2014

A Year Round Summer

Having kids in year-round school makes it hard to have a real summer.
But, we're making it work.
We try to get to the pool after school a few times a week.
And Alice actually has a real summer for the last time, so we have to make it count.

This is an immediate party in our front yard.
Come over and join us.

Exploring with adorable and handsome friends.

Lila taking her job seriously.
I'd normally be wary of a lifeguard wearing a floatie, but I trust her.

This girl loves the pool.

We're having one whether school lets us or not.

Thursday, May 22, 2014


I single parented last week while Ben went to Utah/Idaho to record the Mormon Guitar album.
By the way, to all the people who contributed and who also read this blog, thanks! 
I sort of wanted to feel heroic about the whole thing, but it really wasn't a huge deal.
The kids were (mostly) well-behaved and I got a night out thanks to my wonderful mother-in-law.
I can't complain.
Except that I can always complain.
I'm actually pretty good at it.
(note to self: add "complains well" to my talent post)

I had a wonderful friend come hang out on my couch one night and keep me company.
We don't get to see each other often, so when we do, we have conversations that last for hours.
I was telling her how my father-in-law spoke during his Mother's Day church service and a few days before, sat me down in his office.
He wanted to focus part of his talk on being appreciative of the sacrifices women make to become mothers.
He asked me if I felt I had made any sacrifices and then told me I could get back to him later.
I sort of blurted out, "I don't need to get back to you. I can tell you right now."
It was out there.
No going back now.
"I haven't performed on stage in almost a decade. I miss it and I feel like it's just an impossibility right now. I feel like that's something I've sacrificed to be a mom."

I'm totally aware that it's not a permanent thing and that there are and will continue to be opportunities for me if and when I choose to seek them out.
I'm also aware that I have many friends with children that are still able to find ways to fulfill that part of themselves.
I admire them so much.
I am proud of them.
I applaud them.
I know it's a choice.
Right now, with my situation, I am choosing to volunteer at school.
I am choosing to take my kids to soccer practices and gymnastics classes.
I am choosing to accept a calling that requires me to be heavily involved with my son's Cub Scout troop during the week.

I have looked for auditions around here.
They do exist.
But right now with the time it would require, if I do one, I can't do the other.
A sacrifice of one thing for another.

And even then, when this "season" of my life has passed and I feel like I have the time to give to something I love and miss so much, It's often not the wholesome theatrical experience you were pretty much guaranteed at an LDS school in Rexburg, Idaho.
I'll be faced with choices of what I am willing to say or do onstage (assuming I even got a part).

We make sacrifices every day.
And I think we, as moms, sometimes feel guilty when we think about them as being sacrifices.
That thinking about the things we gave up or put on hold makes us not appreciate what we have.
It doesn't. 
My situation is not special or unique.
But it is mine.
I don't sit around and lament about it. 
But I have certainly thought about it .  

And he asked.

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Kickstart My Heart

The long and short of it is that Ben started this project for fun and now he's got a distributor to sell his album. 
If you can/want to help, we'd be grateful.
Don't worry, there's something in it for you.

You can help by clicking that little 'K' or just by going HERE.

Monday, March 24, 2014

Sharing Talents

I am surrounded by talented people.
I love it.
I have friends and family that can do amazing things.
They can draw, paint, sing, play instruments, dance, make jewelry, sew, cook, speak other languages, photograph, design, build, write poetry, speak eloquently, have a keen sense of style, create something out of nothing, the list goes on and on.

I am not super talented.
I like to think that I'm like Albert Einstein. 
You know, "I have no special talents. I am only passionately curious."
The main difference here being that he was a genius.
This isn't a woe is me post at all, but I really can't do any of the things I listed above. 
There are, however, things that I do well. 
I maybe just wouldn't consider any of them marketable skills.
Here's some stuff I can do:

Binge watch a TV show
Decipher soda brands by smell alone
Make sarcastic comments
Get what I need at Target and then 20 more things
Apply a movie or TV quote to any occasion
Drive, talk on the phone, eat, and scold children simultaneously
Load a dishwasher with precision 
Not vomit (18 years and counting)
Be a source of an unhealthy amount of pop culture
Control my eyes independently
Consume large quantities of soda
Memorize song lyrics
Pick things up with my toes
Write lists

I have often attempted to cultivate a new skill.
But I'm kind of lazy, so if I'm not immediately amazing at something, I tend to bail.
I'd rather "sharing talent" mean that you gave some of yours to people who are lacking.

I can't do this either.

Sunday, March 16, 2014

More Baby

One talented photographer.
One crazy-haired model.

"If there is anything that this horrible tragedy can teach us, it's that a... model's life is a precious, precious commodity. Just because we have chiseled abs and stunning features, it doesn't mean that we too can't not die in a freak gasoline fight accident." 
- Derek Zoolander